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how does it feel to love someone and knowing you don't have to let go?
     to have something and you know you can keep it?
     to have something for you to keep?
     to not let go?
how does it feel to hug somebody today and knowing that tomorrow, you'll still be hugging him?
     to not telling yourself that: "hey, take it all in. just live the moment. indulge in it
           because tomorrow, this will all be over" ?
     to not pretend that everything is just a dream?
how does it feel to totally open your heart, pull your guard down, and just be free?
how does it feel to be safe?
     to not to draw the line?
     to not to hold your feelings?
     to not to end everything?
     to not to start over and over again?
     to not to quit midway?
how does it feel to get into the end?
     to not think when and how to end things?
     to not having to move on?
     to have the right to claim something, protect it, take care of it, and keep it?
how does it feel not having to wait?
I want to be happy.
Not just for a day or a moment.
But I want to be happy for a long. With somebody.

I do not want this role I play.
I leave before I am left behind.
I don't give anyone the chance.
Who signed me up for this?
I did not want this.
But it seems I'm good at this.

Remind me how to love again.
I'm better at that.