If I would wish of anyone to follow us here, it wouldn’t be you. Specifically, I would want that guy to be here and not you. But what can I do. That guy is always busy, always choosing school chores over people. And if he was here, he would be on the other room right now and already deeply asleep. Moreover, anytime, anywhere, he would not look at anybody because he’s stubbornly into her.
It’s not that I am affected of his feelings toward anybody. And it’s not that I miss him right now. No, it’s not like that at all. It’s just that I would rather have him beside me and not you.
Anyway, you’re here now.
Maybe it’s the full-blast air conditioner. It made both of us realize that it is wise to spread the blanket up until our shoulders. We’re leaning against the wall and the laptop is on the other side of the bed. Windstruck is on the screen.
*something cute happened here*
The sun was already peeping on the window when we decided to sleep. And yes, all the while I was a bit amazed that your phone didn’t keep you so occupied.
Then we woke up. I was the first one to leave. I have no reason to stay there anyway.
Thoughts poured over me like raindrops over ceiling-less house—they keep on coming. I thought of what happened months before, of the things I said that I should have not, and of the things I should have said but didn’t.
Well, just days ago you wrote something. It was about you breaking somebody’s heart and that somebody breaking yours. And now, you want both of you to fix things. It’s not that I feel obliged to react on that but I found it an interesting topic to discuss. It’s not every day that a guy would openly admit his naughtiness and try to improve his lifestyle, you know.
Anyway, there are just so many Somebody in your life. I don’t know if there really is that one specific person that you want things to work out right now. And I won’t know if you’re being sincere. Nevertheless, as a woman, let me tell you these things…
You’re not as evil as you think you are. You’re capable of being serious on only one woman. I know you know that, and you had done that already. You just have to find that one person who can keep your attention altogether just for her. And when you find her, concentrate just to her.
When you find her, treat her well. Tell her you love her and tell her all the time. Commit to her and don’t make your relationship a secret. Not everybody is given the opportunity to shout to the whole world their feelings to somebody.
You know, no matter what you had done, no matter what other people think and say about you, and no matter how difficult you seem to love, if she really is into you, she wouldn’t mind. She will accept all of you, support you, and help you make your life better.
Find that woman. And when you find her, keep her and only her.
Maybe you feel proud of the collection you had made. Really, not everybody can make such an achievement. But if I were you, I would rather feel frustrated and retarded. Somehow, I am familiar of that feeling when you’d met a lot of people in your life already yet up until now, you’re still left unsettled. It’s supposed to be frustrating, you know.
So, gather yourself together. Choose to be a better person. Be a loyal lover. Every woman deserved to be loved only sincerely and faithfully.
Anyway, thank you for clearing up my mind. Because of you I realized that as of the moment, I would rather be that guy’s friend than be anybody else’s girlfriend.
