Last night, I spent some time reflecting what it is that I truly want at this point of my life. It seems like I’ve been taking for granted my decisions. Seems like I’ve been diverging away from what I planned beforehand.
Yes. For awhile I wanted change. I wanted to see the other side of the world. I wanted to know if I could be something else. I wanted to break the monotony of what seems to be a routinary life of mine. I wanted to feel alive.
Suddenly, I felt I lost my true intentions. Or was it necessary to change my dreams? I guess it was just proper to desire change because anyway, it was a little girl who formulated those dreams yesterday. Now, she has grown up and she has to realize that there are more relevant things that need to get done.
I wanted to believe that I have not lost my way. I wanted to believe that whatever twist I am feeling right now is a necessary step towards reality, towards maturity.
And there is this funny question that lingers in my mind: wherever I wish to go from here, do I go there alone?
Of course I ask for help but I taught myself to stand on my own two feet. I had walked alone.
Life for me is a journey and I know that along the way, I will meet a lot of faces. And I watched those people special to me just pass by. Sometimes, I felt like I was left behind. Or was it me who went ahead?
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