My Footsteps

Walk at you own pace.

Focus on what you have to do.

Compete only with yourself.

Love at your own pace.

You become unloving when tired.

Open your heart but be wise.

Let people in your life.

Learn to trust others.

Spend time with them.

Be happy.

Laugh a lot.

Play.

Remember God.

Trust His Will.

But do your part as well.

Don't just follow your heart.

Lead it.

Whatever you do, do what makes you happy.

This is your life. 

Make it your masterpiece.

Freedom

"If to be without is to be free, 

it is a strange type of freedom."

Trust

I trust you and I'm smart.

Or I trust you but I'm smart. 

I'm not sure which is the appropriate one to use. I believe it is necessary to not fully rely on other people but I'm not sure if others would be happy to know that they are not being trusted completely.

What I mean though is that I trust you yet there is a part of me that is holding back. I will ask you favors because I know you would be willing to help me. However, I don't let my expectations rise so high because I know you might let me down. I will show you the other side of me but I will keep my guard up.

It's like when you ask me to jump because you assure me that you will catch me, I will jump indeed. But I will tie an invisible rope around me just in case you fail to catch me or you change your mind.

Or when the teacher tells us to bring litmus paper and you would volunteer to bring one for me too, I would gladly accept your offer. But I will still secretly bring just in case you decide to give the litmus paper to someone else or you forget. 

I will be glad if you drop me home especially when it's already late. But I will make sure that I am able to go home alone. 

Anytime, anywhere, I will make sure I can handle myself.

I am thankful that I am able to keep my head in any situation. I can calculate how much trust to give and hold back when I think I am already trusting too much. 

But isn't it sad when you have no one to trust completely? You won't feel free. It's, sad.

You deserve this though.

I'm Sorry

Because I care for you, I'll talk to you in a language you understand.

You deserve an explanation so I'll tell you things you need to know. 

But not everything because I want you to keep your peace of mind.

Right now, you believe in a little bit distorted story. 

You don't know how tragic it really is.

But so long as I see you smile, I think my effort is justified.

Maybe 5 or 10 years from now, I'll tell you everything.

I don't like this part I play as well. 

But sometimes we make adjustments. 

Just trust me on this, ok? I'll make this work.

For now, I'm sorry. 

We Can Be Like This :)

This is a scene in Alice academy. It is the part where a girl would choose/ask a guy to dance with her for the Last Dance. Hotaru, however, chose Mikan. So, it's a girl-dance-with-girl thingy. It's cute, though. ^_^

And it's just everytime I see this scene, I would remember an old friend of mine. I really want to dance with her like this. She can be a good Hotaru and me, a good Mikan. :)

Mistakes Are Not Funny All the Time

            Yes, we might find humor in our mistakes but not at all times and not on every mistake because if this is the case, then we will not be getting anywhere. We need to identify what is truly funny and what is rather pitiful.

There is a limit on what is tolerable for our humor and what is not. We cannot just downplay everything. Making a tragic reality a joke and reconstruct it in such a way that it would rather produce amusement is a form of escape. To deny reality and make it appear rather smooth and carefree is being weak. If this continues to be our approach on reality, then we will never grow. 

            We need discipline and a more mature approach towards the things we do recklessly. I find it really sad when somebody said that we do not regret any of the wrong things we did. It’s not that I could not move on from our past mischief and failures. I recognize and accept our inadequacy and imperfection. But I just feel irresponsible and immature when told that I don’t regret anything. There are many things that need to be changed and I intend to do something about it. So, people, think more critically and act more effectively

Childhood Friends

Sakura, Sasuke, and Naruto. They are my childhood friends. 

One day, Sasuke went somewhere far. A new friend came, Sai.

I grew up with them. I watched their stories unfold.
They inspire me. They bring color in my life. 
All of them make my heart smile. :)

Woman In Love

At the end of the day,

after the busy hours and the race, 

I'm just a girl. 

A woman, actually.

If you are anxious in loving,

like you are hesitant

in opening your heart,

find a purpose.

If you think you are so busy,

like so many things need to be done so soon,

tell yourself that

love is also a priority.

Whatever is stopping you,

whatever is making you hold back,

conquer that.

Overpower that.

You can just close your eyes

and ignore that feeling.

but you are a woman now.

You know what matters most.