Mask

Who really are you?

What do you really want?

Should I believe what they say about you

Or should I believe what you say to me?

You see, my own rationalization might not be reliable.

You paralyze my reasons.

You corrupt my values.

Sometimes, man feels the urge and the need to be a little evil.

You bring me to those times.

I'm aware that you only mean harm.

But I don't stop you. I won't.

Maybe because I want to. 

I love how we do things wrong.

We are like kids playing hide-and-seek-- running away to be free.

But isn't it ironic?

I cannot comprehend what part of hiding suggests freedom.

We know what is proper yet we choose to deviate from it.

We choose to live in the shadows.

We choose to wear masks.
We choose to conceal many things.

We choose to make everything temporary.
Like a spectator that silently watches how things will turn out.
Observing. Scheming. Manipulating.

But I cannot love a mask.
I cannot love someone I cannot trust.
And I'll never understand you because you won't tell me.
You are like a drug to me-- the wrong kind of drug to take.
And a relationship under the shadows is not healthy.


Maybe one of us has underestimated the other.
Maybe I am not that shallow to always concede.
Maybe you are not  that scared to try.
Maybe you do not really want to always hide.
Maybe we want to quit playing now.
Maybe both of us has taken each other for granted.
Maybe we can be more than who we are.
Maybe we can afford to be real. 
Maybe we deserve freedom too.

I wonder what it takes for you to take off your mask.

I never walked with you under the sun.
I never heard your laughter so close enough.
I never really saw you smile in front of me.
If only you would take off your mask, 
I will hold you hand and take all your fears away.
I will tell you that, "It's okay,"
You are free. You are alive. You have a soul.

I cannot see you in the shadows.

I cannot hold you there.

If that's the case, I have to let go.

Friends

Akala ko ba okay na tayo?

I hope nobody's keeping grudges against anybody 

kasi nakakapagod yun. 

Tama na kasi. 

Matagal na yun.

Gusto ko na rin maging masaya.

Forever Young

I've met many people in my life. 
Somewhere in time, they all grew up. 
But you, you never did.

I would like to feel sorry for you 
because you know, that's sad. 
But then, I'm still a child myself after all.

Sincerely, though, grow up. :)

When I Don't Have the Words to Say

My hands would do their part to express what's inside.

Tao

Sari-sari ang reaksyon ng mga tao sa mundo.
Ang walang reaksyon, hindi tao.
Para naman sa mga nagbabalat-kayo-- 
Tao pa rin subalit hindi gaano.

Kape

Kapeng umuusok sa sobrang init.
Alam nang nakakapaso’y hinihigop pang pilit.
Kapag naman tuluyang lumamig ang kape,
Itatabi na lamang pagkat wala ng silbi.

Kamustahan

Kamusta na? 

How’re you? 

Years of receiving such personal inquiries made me realized that it is boring, and too unattached, to just say “I’m okay.” So, I made my answers varied and more creative:

I’m still small.

I’m hungry.

My nails are green!

I’m so excited for Christmas/Sembreak/Summer/New Year!

But really. I'm a socially awkward penguin and I'd rather be alone in my bubble 70% of the time so kindly allow me to hibernate on my own in my tiny cell.