Way Back To Him

I'll be honest with myself for 10 minutes.

Looking at you now, I am reminded

of that guy that I looked up to.

I am reminded of that weird guy who often notice

everytime I experiment with my hair.

That when I feel most anxious and restless with my new look,

he never fails to tell me it looks just fine.

He might just say that because he got good manners.

The kind that he will tell to just anybody else.

But it means a lot to me.

I am reminded of that thoughtful guy

who was willing to bring medicine,

who gave me the bird origami after Bio class,

who toyed me during our Cha-Cha dance practice, 

who gave me the green balloon shaped like an animal,

who accompanied me back home when it's dark,

who sat beside me when Math was frustrating,

who wanted to watch an anime together,

who tried to welcome me in his team,

who shared the isaw,

who pointed his finger to me and pretended to shoot me,

who said his Goodbye properly.

Yes. He did a lot of frustrating things too.

Sometimes, the things he did and said pierce my heart really deep.

And sometimes, when I think of them altogether, 

I cry. Still cry.

But he was a good friend

And I choose to always look at the good side of him.

I want him to seek what can truly make him happy.

I want to see him get there.

I know who has his heart.

I hope things will end well with him and her.

Ok. So, 10 minutes is almost over.

I am not reminded of anything at all.

He's just any guy out there.

He does not make a difference.

I am lying again.

I Can't Keep You, But I Want You To Stay

It’s frustrating when you’re always told about those magic words yet his actions do not justify them.

It’s confusing when you feel his actions mean something yet he does not say anything.

Between the two, as of the moment, I choose the latter.

Don’t say anything. At least not yet.

However, don’t go anywhere. Just stay with me.

I don’t want to see you with somebody else but I cannot commit myself yet to you.

I want us to just take our time getting to know each other.

Let’s be special friends.

No expectations. No obligations.

Let’s just spend a lot of time together.

And let’s spend these times together happily.

Then, let’s just see where we go from here.

Keep on talking to me, keep on making me laugh, keep on cheering me up.

What I’m really trying to say is that stay just the way you are.

It’s enough already that you’re here by my side.

I’ll also try to brighten up your every day.

Honestly, I don’t see yet forever with you.

I’m still confident that should things get too tough for us, I can still easily let go.

But as of the moment, you’re the one that matters most to me.

Maybe my feelings for you are not yet that deep but still, they’re feelings.

That’s why I ask you to just stay with me, patiently.

My heart had been through to a lot of sad, sad things and now,

It seems difficult to penetrate it once again.

But you can make my heart tremble.

You can make my heart beat fast.

You can make my heart forget those many things that broke it.

And now, gradually, a little bit terrified, you make my heart believe again

That something wonderful can still happen.

You make my heart smile.

Someday, if ever that day will come for us,

 When I tell you that I’m all yours, believe that.

I will live just for you.

20 Days

 

From the day it will all begin to the day it will end-- 20 days.

New faces, new experiences, untrod territory.

I shall find either more beautiful jems in my jar of life

Or additional stones that are heavy enough to burden me.

Welcome people. Savor experiences.

Laugh. Learn. Lead. 

Reach out your hand and you will realize 

That the world is actually a friendly place. :)

Cross the Line

 

I'll be waiting on the other side. All you got to do is cross the line. 

Friend

                You always act strong and in control. I can just leave you alone because you can handle things on your own. I can just let go of your hand when we held, I can just not hug you, I can just not inquire about the hard moments of your life. You’re too strong that I just took you for granted. And I thought that as long as I’m willing to be treated the same way, it’s fine. 

 

               We don’t cry. We didn’t complain. We call each other friend. But between being strong and numb, I think there’s a difference.

It Ends Here.

Baek Hee: Thank you for keeping your promise. Just as you promised, you remained on my side until the end. <shake hands>

Them Girls :)

  

  Once upon a time, there were five charming girls.

One day, they transformed into gorgeous ladies. :P